what happened to the me? greed has overpowered me.ive been defeated by greed.ytd was one of the value test for me. HONESTY.i dunnoe if i shld blogged abt it but i guess ill keep it low profile for me tty n mich. i dun wan anythng to ruin our friendship. but ytd n today. ill put under my head n remember that i cnt forget that part of my life. its somethng ive learnt. A VERY VALUABLE ONE.n ill nvr wana repeat this mistake. even if its wad ive wanted for ages. ill nvr give in to GREED. never. initially, what i did was wrong, but after doing some soul searching, i realised it wasnt too late to do the right thng, i asked myself, would i even benefit frm it? dun i even feel bad? i will carry a guilty conscious all my life. A BIG BURDEN somemore. last night, i started thinking abt (ytd)fri when my cousin pranked with me n kept my hp. n i started to panic lyk shit. i couldnt find it. in the end my aunt scolded them. but imagine if it was really gone, i would die. so i decided to think for that poor fellow who lost it. n tt stuff was way much valuable than my hp. hahas. okay. im clean now. my conscious are clear. we are doing what is right. who doesnt want it lyk uve said. but we cant take wad doesnt belong to us. we are not greedy pple. were just wowed by nice stuffs. we have to get over this.anw, HAPPY EASTER SUNDAY! im here to give you guys full cream CHOCOLATE eggs. whoever read my blog, youve just received an easter egg. HAHA. esp to the dearest assTHER.

the time is 6.39am on the 24th of MARCH. ive decided to change my life cause im getting the same results and apparently nowhere. hahas. im gonna lorve KELLY CLARKSON. cause she simply rocks. 22nd MARCH was a wake up call for me. had a strong impact on me. i realised my parents do care ALOT n i maybe caring as much.but i just cant put it to action.n ive noticed my dad is a really gud counsellor.i guess i will only be online in the morning when my parents aint awake yet. hahas but i guess ill get used to it. maybe when i finish my stuffs early i might ask to come online. YAYS! i nid alot of determination to go. alot of controls. my life isnt abt this. its abt THAT.

SOMEDAY MY PRINCE WILL COME...........................

i just wrote a LONG entry .and its all gone now. i dun feel lyk writing it again. im FCUKING pissed. haix. im on the verge of tears. it feels lyk u put in so much effort and everythng runs down the drain. no one see wad uve done yet. arghh. whycantigetwhatiwant? blahs. get over lars. haix. wells. KL WAS FUN. the luffters. the ultimate fun u can ever get. the fun we had on 19 floor. the dominators on 19 floor. 1906 and the links. the camera flashes. the freezing aircon. the new faces we met. the scoldings. the unexpected boring shopping. the MP3!! dun wana tok abt it. the PS. the crazy roller coaster. the vomits. the pains. my GROWING PIMPLE. the food. my irritating bad hair day.(my parting couldnt decide. my pony tail became peacocks tail. ) (i just had a hair cut) sadly i hate it.i wrotes lotsa stuffs just now. haix. all GONE. cant stop crying over it. anyway. played tennis ytd. n i falled for this damm cute guy. wasnt really my age. 20+? hahas. i was attracted to his charisma man. the way he play tennis makes me melts. cant stop looking at charming. didnt wanted to leave the court w/o getting his no. or sth. but i did leave eventually. ahahas. MARIO QUITS?! shit i tell you. hes lyk the best. AI wun b the same again. i wun wana watch it already. blahs. had one of the sleepless night ytd. somethng amusing happened. i was online ytd night ard 11 plus after amazing race receiving pics . suddenly i heard loud screams. its dramatic. i was scare lars so i quickly off the com n went to find my parents. we were all awake . peeping nxt door. our neighbour had some tiff i guess. police came. n its FOUR of them. we keep eavesdropping wad they were toking. even my dad. lols. didnt noe he was so nosey. i wonder wad happen. hrms.den we played detective lar. hhahas. keep guessing wad happen. there were lotsa roles. hahas. quite scary . i tink is husband n wife matter.or mayb abusing the maid. i dunnoe . the police wrote reports. nth small........

hahas. my monitor crashed just a few days ago. whats wrong with this damm computer im looking at man?! first was the modem, den the cpu, den the MONITOR. nxt? probably the keyboard den the mouse, then the speaker and after everythng, the com will die dead. hahas . guess my dad will see the com man more than he says a doc for his own. hrms sths distracting me. i dunnoe. im lyk flunking my sub one by one. wads wrong again? today was terrible. it wasnt me at all. i just had to mask up. i really dun wana show it. its kinda hard but i did it. arghh.y do i even haf to do it?! i dun have my freedom to show me. wads the pt of being me? useless.deep down, in my treasure box, i kept lotsa secrets. i wonder who would i bring with to share them. after all tt has happen, it seems lyk my closest fwen turned into fwens. fwens remain fwens. today made me realise i dun only have fwens. i have myself. it feels much better relying on me rather than fwens. nth much to say too. whatever. i cant wait for KL trip!!! i love band!!

im getting tired of my blogskin. shall i get a new look? hahas.

bad day was today. morning, afternoon and U STILL WUN LET ME OFF IN THE NIGHT?! its totally awful. n i mean AWFUL. AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL AWFUL.
MOTHER! stop bugging me to STUDY harder for the damm bloodie O shit. when can u finish ur sentence?! im really pissed. PISSED PISSED PISSED! totally. i took the damm night to d/l one bloodie song n no song came out?! WTH. my coms so useless now. after reformatting it, its just lyk a baby. everythngs slow. n DUMB. i dunnoe man. wads wrong with the freaking world?! i wana kill everyone. so i can get only the BEST. i missed the first yet IMPT n fav part of AI. ARGHHH. all i shall do now is to reminisce n change my present life for the best. or better. i miss my past. how i wish 0s was another 6 yrs to go. it seems so near now. as life gets on, we get more than life. n i bet when i finish Os, i start to turn back n reflect, the stress wasnt the worst .the worst was yet to come. oh dear...........