remember to vote TAUFIK BATISAH! hes da man! e perfect man to be e future sing idol! one n only!remember jus a vote. his e singin sensation! hes e one! he has e voice n looks! trust me for this once!

slys got enuff fans man! ENUFF! sly has his own fanclub to vote. no worries abt him. he doesnt nid ur votes .jus taufik ! sure ? on?!

i advertise e vote taufik thng in e car too. but im afraid slys fan would turn nasty n damage my dads second wife. so...its all fair at war. sly on one side n taufik on another.one more day! tts tmr!! fair enuff leong lalang n joelyn ho?!
so its........ cow n chicken VS lalang n jo. may e battle begin!ahaahahahss. taufik ! taufik!! taufik!

i went cycling ytd. at east coast again! its the perfect place to cycle. trust me. 2 tyms in a row dude! ahahas. ill go again! bet ya! u can feel e wind in ur hair! all e wind! its just wind. n if u happen to go dere on weekdays, its ur day! no more jerking, no pple. jus u n e wind. my dad n mom went for e two seat bicycle. they were hilarous bro! lols. looking at my dads pissed face. ahhas, yupps. we went in the morning! yars den we saw pple fishing. but were not the fishing family. ahahs. den we threw ice of our beverage into e sea. i buried one. ahahs. den my sis went to trim her eyebrows for prom. den went to buy mircowave popcorns. yars den borrowed whole lot of vcd! ahahs. windstruck was unexpectedly so great! it touch me. so much. heys it nice man! its abt this notorious rough girl, who is a policewoman. yupps.shes cute! she met this timid chicken guy. they met when she caught him instead of e other robbery. den it went on n on. they got closer. n funnier! ahahs. so swt man! den they went on a field trip.their car crash n e guy almost died. she saved him. his saviour lars. but he was shot by her again. im not gg to details. go rent it. its a gd show. yupps. on my dads bdae, on sun , we went to rendevous to eat. n dere was this ill-bred stupid act cute boy. he kept luffing for no bloodie reason. at us. yars we pass e bracelet to my dad. my dad was happy lars.ahahas. i couldnt take it. i just feel lyk pouring e water i drank onto his head! pisser! i diao him 4 tyms. hahas. he saw it. but no reaction. hes so bloodie dumb! his familys so ill -bred,-mannered. he actually shouted at his mom. n his mom looks lyk a mamasan.haix. i rather not get myself into any unecessary trouble. its my dads bdae man.den went to ps to eat ice crm. we wanted to go haigen dazz. butit wasnt dere anymore so we to another one quite similar. its some french word.ate e waffle n ice crm. with banana basket. yupps. tts abt all lars. another long one. hahas.

im back frm band camp. whoo. kinda all dead beat , full body aches (esp my entire back )n sunburned. but it was fun. had fun getting to noe mich mel tty nick small rach valerie all over again. we had so much fun eating! esp when we played concentration after meals. seeing who will get to wash e utensils. den nick n tty had their story. edwins snores. ahahs. hilarous! yars so much more to write. i dunnoe where to start n end. its just frezy fever ! fun fun fun! den had e drumline for vcd. its was so cool! im gonna borrow it too! chilli padi cool! okoks. tt was ytd/ when band camp ended at 6. today is the day! i woke up at 8 plus. dolled up. not reali but just some shirt n 3/4 pants. got ready my notebooks. went down to jurong pt(boon lay) to meet joelyn. it was an hrs mrt journey. goodness! lucky i got dere just right in tym to get into e queue with joelyn. kays.....here it goess! tauifk!!!taufik!!!!taufik!!!! i m ready for him man! he wore sunglasses! so cool! so calm! got 6 of slys n taufik flag. with postcards. we were so high! higher than e sky so high! ahahs! ive kept taking sly n fik ! i cant resist. it was hard though. den we went up to get their antographs. damm it! e crew or wadsoever didnt allow us to take them! bloodie hell! wads this man! he covered e pinhole when i was taking taufik! ahahas. n he shouted at me! you! ahahs. but taufik still look up at me n smiled for me! ahahas. he was so cooL! but in e end..................i forgot to zoom out n i took his big TEETH! ahahas. at least ive gt sth. others couldnt take! ahahas.it okays!overjoyed. wells sly was nxt. i was a lil shy. didnt ask to rite my name. ahahas. instead i guess he saw taufik auto riting rachel n he mistook for rocker . n he wrote rocker, ahahas. but its okays. i was so ps when i shouted wait to sly. cos e bloodie crew took my bk n leave it on e table . its was e cover page. so i shouted wait. n i fliped e pages . its was so embarassing! ahahas. so i was shy when sly sign for me. i didnt ask him to rite my name. lols. but after it, he looked up n give me a big smile n nodded his head with e rocker sign. i smiled till my gums could be seen! my heart was booping ! ahahas. in short, i reali enjoyed myself today! after which, we went to ps to eat with joelyns other gg fwen . e idol fwenzy gang lars. ahahas. ate long johns. den bought my dad a bracelet with his name engraved . it my dads bdae! ahahas. probably eating dinner out today! happy bdae daddy! no matter wad, we love u okays?! vote taufik man! okoks. sly too, okays joelyn? vote taufik more!! lols

hrms. i feel so remorseful abt not gg to any of the autograph sessions! ahahas. cos of my damm joelyn! shes always gg to those stuffs. shti jus read her blog. abt she gg to meet sly. awws. sly?! kinda changin my mind on him. wells hes cool but hes gonna b a disgrace if he ll go world idol. hahas. taufik will do grt. hrms. i wana meet chrissypoo man! if only i could turn back tym man! i would go for da autograph sessions with joelyn or when chrissy is still inside! hell gosh. wad shld i do?!wait for the nxt sing idol?ahahas. nahs wun b the same. im 14! i shld enjoy my 14th yr. im still young! hrms. anw. wonder if they would hold another all finalist autograph session. tt would be bravo! ahahas. tts so alike to turn back tym.anw. my mom allowed me n my sis to vote for taufik. cos joelyns winning! cant let sly win! boo!! may the best dude(taufik) win! ahahas. haix.having some family prob recently.cant get along with family. hrms. wadeva lars. band camp is 3 days away! so fast! Christopher Michael Lee Shen Hin! where r u man! ahahas.

boo! ytd morning was nightmare. i shldnt have gone into my parents rm to slp. i didnt thot if it.my brain was jus a pea.SHIT! my parent r totally raging with fiery flames at me. sad at e same tym. well i hurt them. sorry cant express me well. i feel tt sorry isnt powerful enuff to use it here. after my parents gone to work, i cried, sob, NO appetite?!, my FACE was ghostly lyk a sheet of white paper made frm e damm brown tree, i was trembling , cold. shit. it only ended at ard late afternoon. its was damm miserable harsh for me to take. my parent found e truth. e secret. pheww. i had a jolly hard tym explaining everythng to my mom. it was hard! told her i will b gg to an interview. she seems unwilling to allow. but i thank her anyhows. yars . when to e library first. borrowed TWO bks in 1/2 hrs . i rushed for e mrt. yars. went to bugis to meet stan n yy. bought the gang case frm e wallet shop. its so cool! yars. den he rained heavily jus s we nid to cross e main road. hahas. we ran. but me....it was diff. i started running...my leg couldnt connect with e slippers... a car was abt 20m away..i would wan to survive..i abandoned my slippers n ran. hahas. its was right in the middle of e road. im afraid tt car ran over it. i ran back in e rain n got it back. awwww. we reached dere n tt bloodie sucker close e shop! yars den contacted the other pasir ris guy. he seems sincere lars. but when we reach dere , we told us abt job experience tis n tt lors.tok abt himself too. aiyas. den stan n yy was caught up with this indian guy n offered jobs for them i guess. dirty jobs? hahas.anyways we went back. i went to joelyns hse to play.we took pics n everythng.sing idols n stuffs. i miss chrissypoo guy! hrmmms..

sth to share n for u to give me comments. hope it goes to everyone s it applys to me too. even u ,someday.

Not Giving Up On Love
by Brandie Aviles

I always felt alone
Even when you stood beside me
Feet planted to the floor
I thought it was the right thing

Never wanting to let go
Never giving up the fight
Always holding on
Even though it wasn't right

Can't say you did me good
Can't say you even tried
Don't say you want me now
It's just another lie

Put the tears away
It's nothing but a game
Find another player
My feelings don't remain

We never got along
What else was I to do?
Not giving up on love,
Just giving up on you.

hrms. hope this helps all those who are giving up on their relationship n NOT love.
hey c'mon! being in love really sucks. a kiss and a hug and a couple of fucks, being in love really sucks.


handling hatred
adapted from the bible (1 peter 3:8-13)

live in harmony with one another;be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, cos to this u were called so that u may inherit a blessing.
For,
"Whoever would love life
n see gd days
must keep his tongue frm evil
n his lips frm deceitful speech
he must turn frm evil n do gd;
he must seek peace n pursue it.
For the eyes of the lord are on the
righteous
and his ears are attentive to their
prayer,
but the face of the lord is against
those who do evil."
who is going to harm u if u are eage to do gd?

no one is perfect cos..read on. a simple one. (1 cor 1:25-31)

For the foolishness of god is wiser than man's wisdom, and the weakness of god is stronger than mans strength.
Brothers, think of wad u were when u were called. not many of u were wise by human standards; not many were influential; not many were of noble birth. but god chose the foolish thngs of the world to shame the wise; god chose the weak thngs to shame the strongs. he chose the lowly thngs of this world and the despised thngs -n the thngs tt are not-to nullify the thngs tt are, so tt no one may boast b4 him. it is cos of him tt u are in christ jesus, who has become for us wisdom frm god-tt is , our righteousness, is written: "Let him who boast boast in the lord."

when u start to tink , y m i me? y cant i be lyk the rich n famous. y cant i be pretty or handsome? y cant i be lyk others.y m i born into this family? remember. everyone has their flaws. is jus tt they are hidden. dun be discourage , for no one is perfect , truly unlyk god. den y cant i b god? cos u arent tt lucky. hahas. it okay to lack thngs. esp those u want desperately. but tink again. if u would b perfect. everyone would hate u cos they too want it. u might be KILLED. so its reali dumb to tink tt way. so start to lyk wad god has done wad u r. u r special guy or girl! no clones! no strings attached! it only reach out to those who lack self esteem . for those who already adore themselves, cheers!

okays. todays sat. its 7.47. pm right now. im starin into space except w vacuum. hrms. oyars. i went to east coast on thurs. yuppsit simply slipped out of my mind to blog it.hahas! deepavali! happy deepa-raya everyone! todays e middle day. east coast was grt! went cycling with my bunch of pple who has e same blood running thru our body. wanted to blade but it was so crowded! hahas. aww its so cool! yars. den there was this lil 'mall boy who captures e innocence of a handsome boy. my eyes were glued to him till..clang! i ran into my sis bike. hahas. its was HIL-larious! my sis was dazing too! ahahas.he had a naive look. how i wish i had a bro jus lyk him. hrmmsss. just the perfect pretty boy when he grows up. yars we cycle thru east coast. hahas .den dere was this bloated young girl abt mayb a size of an overgrown toddler who cut my lane! haha. forget it! BUT! i was dumb enuff to cycle behind her n all of a sudden she STOPPED n made a U-TURN! i jerked my bike can! my girl was hurting! lols. IT WAS ALL PAIN IN E ASS! LOLS. okays. u noe wad i did? i yell at her! hahas. i shouted fatty bambi! get lost! hahas. she looked at me with so full sympathy, i was ?????? damm .noT even a S-O-R-R-Y. hahahahas. it was fun teasing kids. esp fat ones! ahahas. okays. today had foot drill . pretty s usual. did e beh-loa with mel n mich. haahs. ultra enjoyment. hahas. den went with them to e food court to eat but in e end my mom told me she bought food home. wanted to munch a bit first but aiyas . i couldnt resist so i went home to eat. ahhas. den went to some warehse jus now . my mom wanted some clothes. in e end bought a RED high heel shoes. e lady say my mom was cinderalla cos she was so far e most suitable person to wear tt. okays u r a swt talker. blahs. went to try on some gowns with sissy. its was so fun! haha we tried n tried! ultimate fun! okays . im off.

oh yaehs. i feel gd....wads e occasion?! its fri. n i jus came back frm somewhere.hahas i did it! under my budget. it was fun! but hurtin. wells i cant b more satisfied! yays! but i have to go back nxt few wks to touch up. hahas its not tattoo if ure wonderin. hahas. im jus so excited! yoohoo!

simply not satisfied with e results.haix my life now is going downhill. everythng is so messy. guess im not gonna enjoy myself nxt yr. haix. shld i appeal? or iszit jus a waste of tym? my moms buggin me if i wana appeal. haix y take e trouble. y shld i go against nature. im destined to be dere. 2 dil? haix tinkin of it makes me unezy. not sure deb ll be appealin cos tt lollipop guy in our klass. deb. inform me if ur appealin! shit . guess i cant b a doc afterall. hahas. lyk stan wana b nurse? hhaa,aiyas. so bored! i dunnoe wad to do. urms im still missin 'blahs'lehs. ever since ytd? when he went to cows klass. hrms.

im freak king fed up now can! u noe wad. i didnt went for e their gathering. all cos im saving on this stupid bloodie thng happening on fri morning can! im sick of it now! i hate saving ! i cant do wad i wan . i hate limitation! pui! if its gonna fail den ill be fretting lyk roasted chicky. arse hole kays. thought some pple having financial probs . fancy know how to spend their $ WISELY too. their parents will go broke with them ard. GUESS THEYRE ALL LIES! so much family probs. lyk we dont have ours. bleahs. whatever kays. im jus not in the mood at ALL!

went for band s usual on mons. kinda borings. but meetin up pals is totallie the opp! hahas. my band buddies. mich mel n tty. we shared those memories we had at sparkc camp n everythngs. hahas. we were luffin our heads out.prettie missin camps.hahas. we want back our memories. truly ardent ones. and heys. im m so delighted now! hahahas. i went to the 'somewhere' jus now. ive got my wish. yays! but ive no idea whether ill go to the expense for it. wells anyways im in for it. im becomin a braver girl! hahas. but im afraid yars. deres always e first tym . tralalalas.

sealed . brokened.

went job huntin with val n rach. hahas. outcome was nah nah. but a hope came. wells we went to her to be exact. yars .flyers at kovan. yars.

im seriosly puzzled. i wan it but im afraid. will dere be risks? surely. hrms. $$. hrms. ill be workin soon. i nid instant cash for it. im keepin tis in the dark. even to my parents. they noe nuts abt wad im up to. n when they find out. damm. i wanted it earlier. but i guess mayb after e exams will do. but now , i nid it. wo. bucks bucks. i nid them badly. for my stuffs! everythng. i nid a splurge!yays! its settled. im gonna work! hahas. dun be surprise to see me serving u cups n cakes. bleahs. hahas.

awws. chrissypoos out. wad a misery. its tym anyway. tt leandra! she shld be e one booted out. i detect a fakeness in tt voice of hers. and her every motion is lyk a ragged doll. haix. my heart sank too everytym chrissypoo was left on the stage not knowin whether he was e one leavin tt nite. the worst was with david. one of my favs is stayin n another leaving. blahs. its jus terrible. tt feeling. yucks. suppose to blog abt chris ytd but for some reason i dun see it here today . so i wrote it again. thru life , i experience lotsa stuffs. gd ones. bad ones. middle ones. and i learn to overcome it everyday. i feel gd tt way. tts always sth to worry abt. one after e other. ill nv stop worryin i guess. skools out. wad to do! i hate it. everyones fightin for bio . and theyre much much stronger than me. i might lose. or will i lose. anyways. i reali hope ill get into the klass im ok with. cos i guess my first choice would be stammered by strong kids.wadeva it is. i still hate skool life e way it is. results n studyin. its totallie two worlds can. it sucks. sucks. sucks.