good charlotte- we believe. i cant manage to put it in my blog but its really nice when i heard it the second tym. now, clar is my webbie for music. haha shes got a whole lot of good music to send to me. 5 tyms more than brinston the BRUDDER. haha. okay i shall be humble n share some with brinston too. haha.she has beaten brudders record.i guess.hahahaha. okay i'm writing this entry out of the blues. let me share with you sth. hrmmm.. i sat bus 101 today frm kovan. yar so as i was buliding my little castles in the air, i started wondering whether to stop the bus stop opp my hse which i get hm faster but i have to walk or to have a bus ride for half an hr n the bus would stop right infront of my hse so that i wouldnt walk too much.i haven told this.the bus is damm jam packed. it seems lyk its impossible to get out of the bus soon.hrm.. if u were me, which bus stop would u stop at? well, just as ure about to decide, have you ever thought tt the hse which is the destination, is somethng lyk a very impt task u have to do? take exp my soon to come 0 levels. okay to get there fast, i had to overcome the obstacles right? the obstacles are the people in the bus tt blocks me frm the entrance of my destination. just lyk in life, the obstacles faced. i could choose to procrastinate n waste my 1/2 ride on the bus just to prevent the battle against the people in the bus.but it would take a longer tym to reach the destination. lyk 0 levels, i must strive hard n fight against the people to score well early. if i dun, i would waste years just to score well in 0s. hrm...if u ever had a chance to experience this, think abt it. though i tink its confusing, but i tink its meaningful.yar anybody guess which stop i drop at? hrm...i shall wait n see...

ahh im back frm RADIATE camp! whoa its really amazing how god made me wanna radiate with the other church buggers.thru this camp, i have learnt many.and ill nv regret abt the extra 10 bucks i have to spare. its really worth it.okay flash back time! it was a monday morning. went to mit my grp, KIAM HEER! at beouno vista station n then to NUS. NUS is way huge i tell u! had the check in n everythng. opening address. mit my grp people, marcus(my grp leader), michelle(asst leader), Ru yi(damm nice chap!), bernadine, maria(not the maid), gifford, nat(sheng jie!), joseph(damm cute kid lar.haha),shen shin(kinda attention seeker,haha) and ian(the guy who came the last)okay after the intro we had lunch.urm not too pleasing but edible. had the team building games. they were damm creative games. but the one tt puts me off is the finale game where 4 people in our grp hadda wear sockings with a tennis ball at the end of it.and we had to hook our tennis balls with others n see whos sockings comes off first.my goodness can u imagine? argh it was damm demoralising. our moral was worst than a piece of sai. haha i quickly surrender lar.hhaa it was really stupid though.it was wash up. the water was freaking nice. very warm! hahaha. had worship. hrm where can i find all the christians song in the world?i really wana get em all! i was touched by worship.met one of the leaders,ee-lyn.she prayed for me. i cant speak in tongues. but i believe i will one day. had the sermon by pastor bee. speaking of the beatitudes. i learnt that i cnt be self sufficient. i were to seek help when i need it. and when i have secret sins, i can nv see myself shine. meek does not mean weak. it means very controlled. lyk a pic of a tame horse. spiritually pure was another point. being the salt n light for jesus! yar tt was abt it. lights off at 11. day 2. woke up n had quiet time. reflected abit on was pastor bee said. she really do make alot of sense.she was really nice.great lady! den had grp sharing. shared abt when i used to give lame excuses to my parents n shashi to potang church. neglected my spiritual life. worship again. this time my hands were really high up. i dunnoe if i had felt god, but i really want to feel him. that feeling i wana have with god. n i desperately need his love. but im always distracted by small thngs. sermon two was nxt. it was abt the salt. joseph acted. it was really funny. he was the salt particle in the salt shaker. yar we are lyk the salt.salt is use for preserving food. just lyk us. we need to get out of the shaker to share the gospel. evangelism. there was this chi song that really not bad. the beat was slow. it means we have only one god n tts lord jesus christ. that was the song the other kiams sang for outreach. our song sounds funny with alot of she mou yang. had lunch. den wet games! wheeee it was damm fun!!!! we played caps ball too. with a ball first. den an egg. den a banana. den a watermelon. den a buttered papaya. oh man! it was way fun! we also played dodge ball. yar damm fun too. also games containing flour. wa tt sucks alot man. my mouth was full of flour. flour stuck under my teeth. gross lar! i had to rinse 5 times more than after brushing my teeth.lol. yar the games were not original. it was modified to the better. lyk dog n bone. wasnt the normal dog n bone. a diff type where we use cucumber as a bat to hit the tomato to our side. haha damm fun lar! like the camp i had at wesley.after that was workshop. the workshop was kinda boring. but i leant abt the other religons. it was dinner den workshop 2. learn abt testimony n evangelism. den was grp time. prepared for the skit for camp finale. haha ours wasnt as good as others lar.haha but i guess every one was looking forward to josephs cute voice n acting.but it turned out mute. so yar u noe. haha. yar guess wad we had for supper? ICE CREAM! haha. yar. so lights off for day 2. day 3(it was long!).woke up. QT. breakfast.marcus told me i look lyk one of his guy fwen.oh man this is the 3rd time sb told me i resemble lyk a guy. lucky he said i was the GIRL version of tt guy. haha. grp sharing. worship! sang alot of nice songs!.yar nice!hrm den had outreach. went to toa payoh care corner. made the elderlys.its a really grt experience trust me. we went to one rm flats unit to give survey. den we went to this flat where a man stayed in. he was really chatty! very out gg. he was a catholic. yar n he had the same surname s me. n cantonese too! so hes chi surname was same s well which very few pple have tt chi surname! i can hardly find one! finally i found one! so much of a coincidence. haha he made me his grand daughter.haha. yar den we performed for them. how i wish i can get all the lyrics of the songs just at the tip of my hand. yar den i gt nat a nick cos he looked lyk sheng jie. so says giff. haha. den he oso say i look lyk his fwen. holy thnks it was a girl.ahaha! a vball one okay!called michelle! omg im lyk damm fated with mich this name.everywhere i go, im sure to have a mich fwen.lol.in klass, in band.in camp too! lol. n i look lyk sb called MICHELLE too. haha michelle seetoh. cool.haha den there was this fight lar. cos the son beat his mum or sth den his mums fwen got furious n wanted to beat him. his son looks kinda those useless people though. i mean how can he beat his mum! yar he really looks useless to me. he is nth lor. treat his mom lyk this just cos hes angry. though i get angry with my parents always, i never thot of laying my hands on them. crazy lar. i talk back oso dare not. just feel lyk running away frm home. he s the wrong way to vent angers.arghh i cant stand the sight of him. give me a gun! lol!!n it created a scene. haha.okay den in the bus back there was this two guy lar! wa seh they are damm LOL can!!! ARGHH I LORVE TT KINDA PEOPLE! haha they really noe how to krap lor. den they can really look dumb! haha yar theyre the best dumb n dumber! haha den they ask stupid riddles that are so qua! qua! qua!. den do the 3 finger sign! wa krap sia! so fun! they damm cute lar.wa i really lorve them. haha keep asking stupid q. lol. haha.den afterwards had the special dinner. WESTERN MEAL! ahhaa. not bad lar. wa i enjoyed the camp finale.all the teams were oh my goodness LOL! esp the dumb n dumber grp. lol.ahaha. arghh totally hilarious stocks of luffters were send ard the hall almost the whole period. haha!! den nite game! omg it was lyk training lar ! we walked ard NUS for lyk ages. till 2am. haha.by the time i was lyk so slpy. i can hardly walk. eh but im still alert enuff to find one of the clue. heh. yar den after nite game went back n had a short nap. it was nice all thnks to the tummy ache i got in the morning. shucks. i had diarhhoea!! went to the toilet countless time. haha okay den we had the last worship. and the testimonies shared by the people. yar i thot lyk one of them really shared a nice one. dunnoe his name but i tinks its meaning. actually all is lar. hrm abt the pirate one. yar he lost one of his eyes in an accident. yar so he said we must be imperfect to see that god is perfect. yar i reaally lyk tt sentence. haha den one of those who acted in the skit that slang lyk russell peters, also talk abt the loo experience. quite impossible to believe but it was funny.haha. yar god spoke to him. yar tt was abt all. n the end of the camp. hrm i took the time to write out this freaking long entry hope i can evangelise pple , haha gods really great.though i haven experience sth den will touch me deep inside, i noe tt gods still with us. whenever we need him ,hes always dere. hes lyk our shadow. but sometyms we tend to neglect him behind. yar but whatever it is, he open his arms willingly to guide us thru. he will help us. hrm i wana have more fwens frm church.i tink theyre nice pple. haha jesus loves you, so do i!

THIS ENTRY CONTAINS SOME GROSSNESS. WARNING. PLS DO NOT EAT WHILE READING.
time FLIES. and i mean it really is fast. lyk teleporting. one moment is this the other will be that already. MY NOSE! it bleed ytd night! for the very first time. iszit a good sign? ahaha. im cool. but afraid too. my nose nvr bleed. why did it happen? hrmmm. now i have this instinct blood would always drone out of my nose whether its as water mucus or whatever shit u wana call it. IM SCARED.SNEEZING is my present phobia.waaaaa....really.i thot it was kinda water muscus u noe. and my nose was like some irritating brat that was following me. i guess its the too concentrated cologne.its not lyk he had some BO.or does he really have? haha.den i kept rubbing my nose, probably i broke one of the vessels inside it. HAHA.arghh. my mom gave me the stupidiest reason. that was the radiation of the com that led to my bleeding. ahaha. wad krap.she just wanted me to use less of the com tts y. haha. now my nose is runny. and the tissue box goes wherever i go. ahh what if its not water muscus OR dried one, oh nooo. wad else can it be??? i really hope i would stay just tt. nth else. hrm.. church camp is tmr. i got in! yay! haha. i really hope i 'd do sth though.

oh boy jap n korean lads are real knock outs!they're out to kill! oh hahahaha! im head over heels with them. waaaaaa! ive been spending my hols recklessly. arghh maths hmwks are real pain in the arse.even she says so. man its IMPOSSIBLE to get it all done. VCDs are great companies! ive been enjoying their presence. TOTALLY ON! water boy was good. whoa with that heavenly cute guy nths not nice abt it. hrm any tootsy has great show DUN EVER LEAVE ME OUT! sassy girl was whhhhheeeee nice. yar okay. church camp is coming. i just cant wait. hrmmm i really hope i could go though...