alright i hate this feeling. the feeling of being the happiest girl in the world and being estrangled suddenly. finally, im blogging again after my usual idles! i guess i have to put my blog to good use. start cherishing life right now. i noe lar life sucks but no use saying it everytime, it wouldnt change. i'd finally come to terms with the fact that life must have its ups and downs. but they all come and go. nth stays. not even friends or ur fav stuffs. not even family. they would somehow leave us one day. im afraid lar. wad if i cannot handle life? does the knife even come to my mind? noooooooooo. its stupid right? but when u feel the world crushing u, who cares about being stupid? okayyy i think i 'd better shutup. u noe im lyk kinda sad now. seeing my farm cant even find a time to sit down and talk really hurts me.OUCHHHH lar; cried my heart. i miss them badly lar. i used to remember they were lyk some very impt peopo in my life. some peopo i cnt live w/o. they are not my ordinary friends or any other krapmate like the sing girls and a boy or krapholes haha. oh yar mich tan was really ccute today! she n i made ms chew chew a song. haha we are lyk so impromptu everytym. we can talk and sing a song halfway. lyk we can shit n wipe our ass halfway. lol. den lynn with our chi version of wadssup! like the bengs saying to peopo. haha my san ba and clarchick both damm fun! boob implants,etcc so many memories lar!! :D okay my farm, they were so krappingly special to me. and i reckon its the essence of our very strong friendship that made me feel this way. and we had to thnk RXF that made us the CCFF FARM. well, i guess the most evil thng in this world is life. it cheats u all the time. it makes u happy, den it makes u cry. i love my farm. and i hope when its the yr 202O, we see each other in the toilet screaming at our kids, we can still yell and greet each other nicow lim, leong lalang, jo ho and rachick ng! hahahaha,