If only parents could change every year.We could then experience all kind of them. who can guess how im feeling now? i guess no one can guess it right. even if you did, it was a wild guess. i feel so TORN. how i wish i could just jump down and end off my misery. the misery i dun wish to endure anymore. would i ever pull thru this year? This year is my turning point. Everythng is different. I had to take so much torments.I dunnoe why. WHY?! did i change my happiness into torments? or mayb this is wad im gonna get? or mayb just bad luck? so far this year brought me much tears. less than half of the year has pass, and i had teared for a years sorrows.do i really have to feel this way for the rest of the days? or iszit just this year? my friends and family, they made me wad i am now. not sth big, sth hurting to me. i cant feel the connection i had with anyone like i used to have.i want them back.i guess many others are feeling the way i am now, longing for happiness EVERYDAY. n i guess its not everyday we get to be happy lar. but its lyk im only happy for 3 times in a mth now. thats bad. i finally came down to a decision, and that is to blog out wad i feel. but wads the use, the farm dun wana hear my problems cause they have their probs, now, even if i told them, i dun even feel lyk i just told them. its beta to be silent, i guess thats the only happiness im gonna get...